Day 42

I wonder when I get to just enjoy me for me. You know, without trying to rediscover myself and change all these things about me. For some reason, even though I was all screwed up and sinful, God thought I was worth it, even with all the garbage and imperfections and annoyances. Dare I say it, the Bible even says He delights in us. So why do we constantly compare, scrutinize, pick at, trash, and berate ourselves? I truly think most people believe that God would like them better if they were more . . . something (go ahead and insert whatever word you want here, be it secular or in christianese). I don't think we'd say that with our heads, but it's how most people act, even ones who know better. Why do we believe that? Who taught us that? Whoever it was, I seriously want to punch them in the face! Somehow, people have come to believe that if they do something a certain way, they'll get something good, or bad, from God. Rather than the truth, which is if we let God in, He'll change us to reflect Himself. He's that good at what He does. It's not complex. But it's very profound. So I'm gonna spend some more time thanking Him for making me just the way I am, and enjoying that person. If you don't like it, take it up with my Creator!