Day 35

So I'm having a conversation with Sam today about how Tuesdays are his worst days all week. (this is a new thing since he learned he has to do the year end gymnastics show, and gymnastics in on tuesdays). So we have "the talk" AGAIN, and it ends up in him stomping up stairs after I ask him to go get dressed for the day. I hear yelling and stomping and things slamming around. Lovely. So I calmly go up and let him know this isn't appropriate for an 8 year old, but rather a 2 year old.

Me: "Do you think throwing a tantrum will make anything better?"

Sam: "No".

Me: "Is this how you see your dad handle situations like this?"

Sam: "It's how I've seen you handle them sometimes."

Me: (feeling deep shame and remorse . . . Awesome). "Well, that's why I asked if it's how you see YOUR DAD handle these situations. I know I don't always handle them great, and I obviously still have growing up to do in this area too Sam. I'm sorry you had to see me act out like a two year old at times too. This is why we both look to daddy at how to handle ourselves when we're scared and mad. He does it better than us."

And that's how I started my day. The good news is it only went up from there. So, do I steward my feelings and disappointments well?? Obviously not in front of my 8 year old!! But thankfully I do steward admitting my faults well (i.e. blogging my sins for all the world to see)! Oh boy, am I a work in progress. Though it's humiliating, I am thankful for the opportunity to be very real with my son and show him first hand how his mom is daily in need of forgiveness and grace and a Savior!